Endless Forms Most Beautiful

by The Difference Engine

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released August 6, 2012

produced, performed, and recorded by christopher g. brown except where noted otherwise. mixed by christopher g. brown in may-june 2012.

abram taber: additional live drums on 6, ebow and other guitar noises on 7, handclaps on 10

danielle ameen: handclaps on 10

additional production on 1, 5, 6, 7: abram taber

recorded from june 2011-may 2012 in various locations in boston, brighton, cambridge, saugus, and watertown, massachusetts.

mastered by devon wedge @ WonderfulColour studios in june 2012.

all music and lyrics written by christopher g. brown ©2012 analog telepathy music ASCAP

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Track Name: Still
i will repeat every word that i said
but if i try to explain you wouldn't understand
i don't speak the language that you speak
i can't see the colors that you see
and i'll remain still.
Track Name: The Day That I Forgot You
the casinos resonate that i’d be paralyzed with doubt.
that after drinking this passion wine, i could never live without.
but there’s one thing they never counted on:
this solemnest of vows
that anything they try to see
is meaningless to me now.

you’ve never looked more beautiful
you’ve never looked more beautiful
then the day that i forgot you

the casinos resonate while engulfed in a stream of doubt
that after finding their stolen prize, they could never live without.

you’ve never looked more beautiful
you’ve never looked more beautiful
then the day that i forgot you
Track Name: In Medias Res
i’ve heard nothing
since the glass shattered
and we folded like cotton sheets
blood surrounds me
and i cannot move
as i see you approach through the flames

i will replay every moment in my head
in the hopes of seeing something pure

but every flash widens the gap.

the cables are arcing
and the fires are growing
my vision is all that remains of me.
your lips are moving
and you’re reaching for my hand
but if i close my eyes then maybe you’ll disappear.

i will replay every moment in my head
in the hopes of seeing something pure
i will replay every moment in my head
in the hopes of seeing something pure

but every flash widens the gap.
but every flash widens the gap.

before i go with you
before i leave
i need to try once more
to see what came before

i will replay every moment in my head
in the hopes of seeing something pure
i will replay every moment in my head
in the hopes of seeing something pure
Track Name: Happy Together
as i stared along the coast,
the caskets near opened
at the sound
of the waves
the waters invite us close,
and the pine is beckoning
tearing the seams
tearing it to shreds
and i will ensure one thing
if there’s one thing to be sure
you will always
will always know

what you mean to me.

the sun is blinding on the shore
my left hand guides me through
through waves and hands
on my way to you
and i will ensure one thing
if there’s one thing to be sure
you will always
will always know

what you mean to me.
Track Name: Endless Forms Most Beautiful
every passing second grips me like a trap
and these eyes will linger in my shadow

and here on the banks of the charles
my reflection is who i trust

this changing state of affairs could last forever
as endless forms most beautiful

here on the banks of the charles
my reflection is who i trust

can’t you see
you’re everything to me

by the side of the dam i will wait
until the moment you arrive

can’t you see
you’re everything to me

all i can see behind you are thunderstorms
echoing the nightmares before the bliss

here on the banks of the charles
my reflection is who i trust

can’t you see
you’re everything to me
Track Name: The Hunter
there is no forest, there's only trees
rows and rows of thorns pressed against my knees
i can see my destination just past the brush
but the owls are insisting that there's no rush

i'm a hunter without a gun
watching the game pass
one by one

there is no forest, there's only trees
and dozens of eyes staring out at me
blinking only at the times i look away
lulling me to sleep as my thoughts drift away

i'm a hunter without a gun
watching the game pass
one by one
Track Name: Lights I
your lights are everything to me
your lights are everything to me

i’ve spent so long on this road
that the medians begin to blend
all that exists is the place where i am
i’ve lost belief in a start or an end

i see you
withering in the breeze
i see you
the only thing guiding me

what the hell is another year?
and what does it matter where i go?
drawn to a swamp by a flickering light,
at least it’s veering off of the road i know.

i see you
withering in the breeze
i see you
the only thing guiding me

your lights are everything to me
your lights are everything to me
Track Name: In The Dim Lights of 3A
in a motionless night,
i was trying to find
the power to speak aloud
of a clear dependence;
an undeniable
symmetry inside of us.

but oxygen would not fill my lungs.

so i hesitated again,
staring at my coffee cup,
before i lost all restraint:

i said, “i love you”
in the dim lights of 3A
i said, “i love you”
and then tried to look away

but i was locked into position,
a captive of my own design,
waiting for the air to move.

every single second felt like a year.

then you said “i love you”
in the dim lights of 3A
you said “i love you”
and you would not look away
you said “i love you”
in the dim lights of 3A
you said “i love you”
and everything else just faded away.

and everything else just faded away.

there was only you
and me

left in the world.
Track Name: Paste II
can you watch me fail without feeling bad?
acknowledge my weaknesses and improvements to be had
don't tell me i'm being hard on myself
just tell me i'll do better next time
i know that i will with you
but i still feel comfortable
with my ego at its weakest
when i am with you
when i am with you
Track Name: Endless/Endless
it haunts my every move
and invades every sigh
it can’t be reconciled
with logic on my side
to leave is to reject
regardless of the why

i slept while you were stolen from me,
endless years pervading my dreams.
i slept while you chose to leave,
collecting each eye between them and me.

you could have woken me.

it stalks along the shore
closing every single door
muting the very voice
i thought so loud before
its snow white sun is so bright
that i can’t see you anymore.

i slept while you were stolen from me,
endless years pervading my dreams.
i was losing my mind while your exit was planned,
ignoring the entrails i held in my hand

i said before that i wanted anything,
anything but exactly this to happen.
i will remain still.

i slept while you were stolen from me,
endless years pervading my dreams.
i had no fight left when you left me that night,
but when i tried to stop you, you looked me in the eye

you said

“you’re constantly on my mind,
you have no reason to be terrified.”

if i know one thing and i only know this,
i want my love for you to be endless.
i want my love for you to be endless.
i want my love for you to be endless.