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Bolt From The Blue
04:34
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I thought everything was just fine
And that we were made to last to the end
So how could it be I was so wrong
Without a single sign I could portend
It was a bolt from the blue
The shock I feel is like nothing else
Sending shivers up and down through my spine
Blindsided by the one I loved most
I’d worshiped at the altar of your shrine
It was a bolt from the blue
How will I carry on
When everything is leaving me?
How will I carry on
When everyone is leaving me?
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Salt
02:03
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As I’ve said before, there’s nothing left to do
Counting the days while I pine for you
And while the weeks will pass me by
Well-being could be no further from my mind
Oh, woe is me…
Oh, woe is me…
I won’t admit that this can be used
Salt the wound, and long be it my muse
I’ll hold the torch, though it may be wrong
But at least I’ll write another dozen songs
Oh, woe is me…
Oh, woe is me…
To love and have lost…
Oh, woe is me…
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I don’t know why you look for answers
When the solution is so clear
You bathe yourself in these waters
And I insist that it’s out of fear
It’s like I’m always telling you:
You know Jesus loves you, but not like I do
You don’t have to eat my flesh to see what I can do
I don’t know why you still believe
I guess it’s easier to go with the flow
But it’s so obvious if you just think
I’ve given you all you need to know
It’s like I’m always telling you:
You know Jesus loves you, but not like I do
You don’t have to drink my blood to see what I can do
It’s like I’m always telling you
And I swear that every word is true
You know Jesus loves you, but not like I do
You don’t have to eat my flesh to see what I can do
You know Jesus loves you, but not like I do
You don’t have to drink my blood to see what I can do
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Conscription
02:35
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And so the lines are drawn
And I’ve made the call to arms
To be on the right side of history
Now civility’s gone
But why we wished harm
Is still just a mystery
Just a mystery
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Silence
03:02
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Can the surface shine
If I’m still inside
I’ve shut the blinds and killed the light
Solitude is all I need tonight
And silence…
And silence…
This world is so unkind
So I’ll retreat into my own mind
(There is so much I no longer recognize
In myself and in you)
This world is so unkind
So I’ll retreat into my own mind
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7. |
The Axe
05:04
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I know I have no right to reach out tonight
That you needn’t hear any more of my plight
But I just need to make it exceptionally clear
Exactly what you have done to me, my dear
And now that I have your attention
I knew if I went to you with what I have to say
I could already see the venom due my way
But we need a win for this to be fight
And I just need to be the one who is right
And now that I have your attention
Let’s not say a word that we will regret
Cause the tree will remember what the axe is sure to forget
Intrusive thoughts of you
Course through my spine
Whenever I remember
But I tell myself I’m fine
Just bury, bury, bury
Til the anger loses sway
Just bury, bury, bury
Til all feeling goes away
Before too long it returns to the front
And I find myself back at the start
Reveling in this rage anew
The only way to protect the parts
Of my heart that still remain
I find it easier to explain
That this is your doing, and only you
Than accept that I played my part too
And now that I have your attention
(Draw it away from me)
And now that I have your attention
(Pretend that I’m guilt-free)
Let’s not say a word that we will regret
Cause the tree will remember what the axe is sure to forget
Now let’s not say a word that we will regret
Cause the tree will remember what the axe is sure to forget
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8. |
Camera Lucida
02:22
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It’s just so easy to place the blame
Rather than take credit that I could claim
A villain is needed to tell any tale
And reality is an unnecessary detail
It’s all simple
And it’s all so clean
To think that I’m the victim
The victim that I’ve never been
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9. |
On Me
03:57
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I cannot let go
From all that I know
Because I fear
The things I may hear
I have made a plan
And it will span
Within this haze
The rest of our days
And that’s on me
And that’s on me
But since then I’ve learned
You had cause for concern
And how you were right
Without an ounce of spite
I was left in my dread
I lived inside my head
And I regret the way
I never let you get away
And that’s on me
And that’s on me
It’s been some time and I hope all is well
It’s been some time and I hope all is well
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10. |
Forfeit
04:12
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There’s nothing like the pangs of pain
When you don’t have a complaint
And you make a mountain out of a molehill
And think you need to be bolder still
I never knew I could know this kind of shame
A public forfeiture of this very game
And now to bury my head in the sand
Cause nothing’s gone the way I’ve planned
And now to bury my head in the sand
Cause nothing’s gone the way I’ve planned
Mortified with my head in my hands
Because of me nothing’s gone the way I’ve planned
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11. |
The Last Song
03:48
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This is the last song
That I will write about you
As I rue my past and
Take the penance due
Tonight I write to forget
Tonight I write to forget
I may have been wrong
But at least you weren’t right
Whatever you need
To sleep at night
I know I’m to blame too
But I’m out of fucks to give
The best that I can do
Is relearn how to live
Tonight I write to forget
Tonight I write to forget
I may have been wrong
But at least you weren’t right
Whatever you need
To sleep at night
I may have been wrong
But at least you weren’t right
And this is the last song
I’ll write about you
So tonight we’ll toast
To the present
To the future
And to whatever the hell you’ve got going on
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12. |
Hidden Oceans
02:29
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Now you’ve defined who I am as a man
And I can no longer recall who I am
Because of what you made me believe
I thought I could be settled down, doing just fine
Till I heard that train in the back of my mind
And what I once loved terrified me so
And what I once longed for would not let me go
To be
To be me
Because of what you made me believe
Because of what you made me believe
Because of what you made me believe
Because of what you made me believe
(Hidden oceans lie beneath the crust)
(Sinkholes waiting to drown your trust)
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13. |
The Death of Me
04:16
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Holding tchotchkes I’d never need,
Rusted shelves limply line the walls
I’ll rip them down and reveal the screed
And wrap it all up in pallid pall
If I lived through this again
It would be the death of me
The burden is what we grow beyond
Watching time burn on puring pyre
The acrid smoke smells of burning frond
As the past smolders in languid fire
If I lived through this again
It would be the death of me
The flickers flash across my eyes
With the ashes of that I which I prized
As I slowly drift off to sleep
I’ll grip tight the lives that I keep
If I lived through this again
It would be the death of me
If I lived through this again
It would be the death of me
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14. |
Forward, Always Forward
02:33
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Unmoved
06:15
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A cross hangs near
But shadows doubt
Wallpaper tears
From seasons of drought
And if time continues to pass
Like drops of blood cut on stained glass
Islands will remain unmoved by you or me
And life will continue to march from the sea
Rain comes and goes
Erodes even stone
Slave to time’s throes
We live alone
As we sit and
Wait for the end
Of the world we
Can’t help but notice
The future was
Eaten by owls
And knowing we
Can’t help but notice
Islands will remain unmoved by you or me
And life will continue to march from the sea
And if time continues to pass
Like drops of blood cut on stained glass
Islands will remain unmoved by you or me
And life will continue to march from the sea
Islands will remain unmoved by you or me
And life will continue to march from the sea
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16. |
Glacial Erratic
03:46
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I admit my faults
I can count all my flaws
I was a bit of a dick
Watching glaciers thaw
But I always knew best
I always knew best for you
I always knew best
I always knew best for me
Then reality crushed me
And it was my own damn fault, I know
I was always king
Made sure everyone knew
So when you released the air
Every eye was on you
You left this here for me
And I left you something too
The glaciers have moved on
Far beyond me or you
Then reality crushed me
And it was my own damn fault
Then reality crushed me
And it was my own damn fault, I know
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17. |
Ten Minutes to Dream
01:57
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I only have ten minutes to dream
In this life of impossibilities
Reality is only what it seems
And I only have ten minutes to dream
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18. |
Hello
04:11
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Hello
Your letter did not find me well
Cause I’m still broken by your spell
And so I listen again to the melody
That once was anything but this wall between you and me
Just float back to the top
And get the smiles on
You’ve got to work through this
Even when the world’s weight piles on
Hello
Your letters did not find me well
The thought was nice but I’m still a broken shell
And so I listen again to the melody
That was once anything but this wall between you and me
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19. |
Acceptance
05:23
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Mountains remain still
The tides will rise and fall
Names will disappear
And time will continue to crawl
Past us inevitably
Past us inevitably
None of this matters
But it matters to me
To own everything
As time continues to crawl
Past us inevitably
Past us inevitably
Breathe, breathe, just breathe
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The Difference Engine Boston
the difference engine is the solo venture of christopher g. brown (vary lumar, ex-8mm fuzz, pyotr, they have this machine, ochmoneks)
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One Golden Winter
by Fifth Business
christopher tracked and mixed this ep as well as a forthcoming ep.
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by Downcity Armory
christopher tracked and mixed this ep as well as their forthcoming full length.
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The enigmatic Frank Ene's solo record lives in a magical world where Serge Gainsbourg fronts Yellow Magic Orchestra.
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